Ain't Killed Me Yet - Eric Church

So the date of my wedding is pretty set on May 3, 2013. According to my countdown, that is 171 days away. It makes me excited and nervous at the same time.

From Day 1 to right now I've broken out 2 times, considered eloping once a day, reached the verge of tears, had countless panic attacks, and have fallen more in love with Zackary and realized that he's worth it.

We're making progress though.

I mean the bridesmaid dresses are picked. Granted I still have to get ALL my girls together to try them on but they're pretty gorgeous. And that isn't even crazy bridezilla talking. Two of my five actually picked them to try on. Whooo!!! My girls are going to look great.

Majority of the wedding party is picked out. I'm just waiting for Zack to get a chance to breath so he can decide on the last two groomsmen. Then we'll be able to cross something off our list!!!!

I've created a website for us too!!! Not much is posted because everything is still tweaking itself but it's been fun.

Let's see I've also began to gather addresses. Semi set up engagement pictures. (They'll be done by my favorite ginger.) Settled on a reception location. Got my color scheme picked. (Silver, Red, and Cream.) Narrowed it down to three dresses. And they are SO inexpensive and gorgeous it kills me. I recommend looking here for dresses if you already have an idea of what you want. At the price you can buy two or three and return whatever one you don't decide on. And I think I even have an idea of how I want the decorations and centerpieces to look like. Hmmm, it seemed like I had a lot more accomplished in my head but apparently not.

Pinteresting is part of my daily routine. It is my wedding savior.

My to-do list still consists of:

• Ceremony place/ someone to marry us
• Favors
• Florists
• Guest list
• Photographer
• Wedding Bands
• Invitations
• Cake
• Save the Date..?? (Do I HAVE to do these??)
• Wedding Party gifts
• Band?? Entertainment??
• Menu
• Get in shape
• Cake topper. It shouldn't be THIS hard to find a multi-racial couple.

Uhhh. I'll just stop there. How sad. It took me less than two minutes to think of a fourth of what I still need to do and it took me almost 10 minutes to come up with what I've done. All this planning on top of the holidays. Blaaah. But I'm surviving!!!

At the end of the day, if the wedding goes completely wrong, all that matters is that I'm married to Zack. If that goes right, I'll be good.

My only advice to all those who care enough to read this and aren't married: take any help you can get and make sure you love your man deeply. It's the only thing that doesn't make wedding planning seem like so much work.

Sigh. Goosfraba.

I Feel Like Dancin' - All Time Low

I'm happy to say I have met the man I am meant to be with forever.

I'll skip the hopelessly romantic love story and just say we are so happy with each other. And preparing to be Zack's wife is one of the best feelings ever. I love this man so much.

I do feel like I need to share the engagement story because it is so sweet.

We left early (3 A.M. early) this last Saturday morning to head to Vegas. We went for an All Time Low concert. I don't think Zack realizes how much I appreciate the sacrifice he made for me. He so willingly drove the 7 hours after working overnight for a week so I could see these boys.

(While it meant a lot, I don't think I'll ever make him do that again.)

After we got there we did a bit of the tourist thing. Got a little lost... Crashed at the hotel... Wandered around the casino til check-in... Took random pictures of everyone doing random stuff... Ya know, the usual.

When it was time for the concert we got ready and headed over to the House of Blues. Which by the way, AMAZING!!! We watched all the openers and enjoyed the concert thoroughly. Then ATL came on and put on the best show I have ever seen.

During "Therapy" when Alex told us to turn to the person next to us, kiss their face, and slow dance with them; I did just that. Zack has this amazing body and I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it when he holds me. I wouldn't have wanted to be with anyone else at that moment.

Anyways, the show ended and we left. Poor Zack was exhausted. Maggie and I had joked about he and I going to Vegas to elope and after we got outside Zack apparently got down (because of the exhaustion) and I didn't see but Maggie freaked out thinking he'd propose right there. I thought she was crazy.

As a group we semi-discussed what we wanted to do next. My vote was the hotel room. Zack then told me that "Jacob" wanted to see the fountains at Bellagio. And so we went from there.

Honestly, I didn't want to. My pinky toes were hurting and it was another long walk. Plus halfway through I really had to pee and they wouldn't stop!! How rude!!

Well we got to the fountains and Zack was telling me a little about them 'til the show started. It was beautiful. Zack was hugging me but everytime I tried to hold his hand he wouldn't let me. Talk about annoying.

When the show was over, Zack pulled me in and said, "I have a question for you." And he got down on his knee, pulled out a ring, and said, "Will you marry me??" I just smiled. He then proceeded to yell at Maggie and Jacob whom were capturing the Kodak moment to "Get over here!!" I told him I would and we kissed and all that other mushy gushy stuff.

Suddenly we were in a buffalo stampede and 50 people were watching us. It was awkward and cute at the same time.

After watching the video you can't help but laugh. There's this beautiful proposal going on and during my answer techno music starts playing and you hear some British lady say, "Awww. I think we just watched a moment."

It's great.

I am so in love with Zackary. I can't wait to see what life has in store for us. Until then though, we have a wedding to plan.

I'm on Day 1 and already so lost. I hope things start unraveling themselves because as of now, blaaaah. Either way though, I'm just so happy!!!

 During the ATL Concert.

 Famous Post-Engagement Photo.

 Celebrating Football Sunday With BLING.